I’ve never been very successful at achieving my goals or finishing projects. I am highly successful at starting projects, but seeing them through to completion is another story. As a single mom who works full time, I don’t always have free time to devote to writing. It’s difficult enough to carve a chunk of time to exercise let alone indulge in creative endeavors. Although, I’ve noticed that even when I do have a bit of free time I don’t take advantage of it. Call it laziness. Procrastination. Fear of failure. Indulging in time wasters instead of prioritizing my time. I could go on and on, but what it boils down to is a lack of commitment on my part. There’s a huge difference between wanting a different life for yourself but haphazardly working toward it, and making a commitment with heart and soul to create the life you always envisioned for yourself and your family.
I haven’t been totally committed to creating a future a thousand times more brilliant than the destination of my current path.
I am now, and since I’ve made that decision everything seems easier because I’m working toward a goal that was once only a dream. It’s no longer a wish or unattainable aspiration. Every day my writing progresses without fail. Today, when all I wanted to do was sleep while Maya was napping, I wrote. I thought about where I wanted to be a year from now. Six months from now. A week from now. I decided that sleep could wait, but the screenplay could not. I was rewarded greatly for my tenacity in that I finally figured out how to tie together scenes from the beginning of the screenplay in with the middle and final scenes. I found a way to make a situation come full circle while keeping the protagonist guessing but the audience in the loop. It makes me smile.
I’m still not finished outlining Act II and I wanted to have it done this evening, but I’m close. I need to reassess my goals and alter them slightly because this is going to take slightly longer than I anticipated. But that’s ok.
Because I’m getting there. Period.
It’s all about those baby steps, right?